April 2012
8 posts
If you love your mom, repost this. One girl didn't...
gracewinchester:
hipnoticc:
THE AMOUNT OF NOTES. <3 i’ve reblogged so many times lol NOT RISKING IT
WOULD NEVER RISK THIS
these things are so stupid but they scare me so im going to reblog it anyway :’(
desdicha-fuerte:
Oh man, what I’d give to still be in Disney.
What I’d give to relive those four days.
so i had a conversation with my friend about my being self-conscious and how my best friends are drop dead gorgeous and have guys hitting on them left and right (whether they know that or not) and i feel so blah because we were on the disney trip so we’re all wearing shorts and stuff and i was feeling really bad because my best friends looked amazing then there was me the chubby derp. so we...
signs
it’s funny how many they just pop out when you really need them..the past few days have been kind of rough and i was really upset about a few different things. i was ready to give up all together and then in choir we listened to a josh groban song that just spoke to me and it said you are loved don’t give up and i had to think about other things and not listen to the song because it...
March 2012
6 posts
ok being single is great, i love doing my own thing and mingling and stuff but you can only handle it for so long and im just so tired of being alone at this point…gjhgfj and the fact that 2 bfs in a row have cheated on me just makes me feel like shit…what is so wrong with me that they had to go out and find other girls..why am i not good enough? being single, getting cheated on, and...
February 2012
5 posts
We don’t realize how much we affect people. How just one touch or phrase can bring back terrible memories that the other person had been suppressing. That person was doing such a good job in forgetting and then you touched them a certain way or said something that someone else used to say and you bring all those feelings and memories back to that person. That giant wall that they had worked so...
all of this means nothing
I wish we knew what other people thought, it would make shit so much easier. We’d know when someone was lying. We’d know how others feel. It would save us a lot of hurt. You wouldn’t misinterpret things because you know exactly when he meant by hugging you or randomly coming up to you and talking to you about anything that pops into his head. wkerwlerkj i hate that…i think...
i just want to be ok
I'm never enough
I’d just like to know why. Why did you do it. Why did you ask me out? Why did you do shit with her? Why? I’m so sick of not being good enough. I’m never enough for anyone. Just once I’d like to be someone’s everything, just once I’d like to be the first choice, just once I’d like to be enough. Instead I’ll just always be the hookup, the girl to past...
its not fair
you don’t get to say you’re depressed. you dont get to say that you miss be because this is your fault. you’re not allowed to play the victim when you fcking cheated. you lost the right to say “poor me my girlfriend broke up with me boo hoo”. you brought this upon yourself. its not fair that you go around acting like im this horrible bitch that broke your heart when...
January 2012
5 posts
She's Gone
She’s gone…my baby’s gone. I came home half expecting to see her there even though I had just been in the room when she passed. It feels like a nightmare that I can’t wake up from. None of this seems real. She was so excited to see us I felt so guilty that she was so happy when we all knew that we were putting her down. We kept questioning our decision and right before our...
Cocoa
Holy crap when it rains it fcking pours. Everything is happening at the same time. It is way too much. I’m ready to fcking explode. They found a tumor in my dog’s heart today and they basically said that she’s gonna die soon, either tonight or in the near future. They have her on medication to help her breathing but if the medicine doesn’t work then we have to put her down...
Detached
I feel like a ghost just walking around aimlessly. I smile and laugh and go through the motions but I’m not truly happy. Everyone seems to believe it though which I guess is a good thing because if they knew then it would somehow get to “them” and they’d do how much they fcked me over. If they don’t know then I can keep pretending like they haven’t affected me....
Not ok
Finally home and in my room alone. Finally i can relax. Today seemed to take forever, full of fake smiles and “I’m ok”s. Here in my room I can sit and finally say the truth. I am not ok. You don’t find out that someone’s been cheating on you and be ok the next day. You don’t find out that your boyfriend loved someone else while being with you and be ok. You...
I can't do this anymore!!
Why can’t i ever be truly happy, huh?! Why?!?! Just once I’d like to be happy with no strings attached. My boyfriend makes me so incredibly happy, I honestly haven’t been this happy in a very long time. But no, it can’t just be that..I can’t just be in a really good relationship..something HAS to be wrong. What’s wrong is she’s in the picture. And no...
December 2011
3 posts
a kid again
So he may be coming over today to cheer me up since I’ve been home sick for fricken ever. He was the one that wanted to come and visit which I think is really nice. I love getting visits when I’m sick especially from a really good friend, a boyfriend, or guy I like. I feel like I’m a kid again =P. I’ve been really excited like all day hoping that he does end up coming...
Reblog or your mom will die in 928 seconds.
justjamielynn:
I love my mom.
I am risking nothing
how is this even possible?
anyway, still not risking it
…..
So tired of having “friends”. I think I have these amazing friends yet I feel like when it comes down to it I have no one. Right now there’s only one friend that I can count on. The rest I’m not so sure about. I feel like everyone’s just nice to my face and yeah they vent to me and shit and some tell me EVERYTHING but it’s still whatever. I give and give and...
November 2011
3 posts
An other night of trying to hold down my food and forcing it to digest…lwklkjerlkj so fat
dads home all week and now he thinks he runs shit…stfu….lerjwler can’t wait to leave..sometimes i wish i could just find an older guy that could take care of me and just run away together..it’ll look like we ran away out of love and mom wouldn’t be embarrassed or feel like a failure that i ran away because home is hell
fat
trying so hard to keep my food down right now..i shouldnt have eaten that much, im disgusting. I hate throwing up but thats what i want to do right now. trying so hard to not fall back on old ways, i hate calling it relapsing but im trying so hard not to relapse. I just want to be skinny and beautiful..im so ugly its gross…no one wants me…when im skinny people like me but when im fat...
October 2011
2 posts
My fault
the nightmares continue and it just makes me think of everything that happened. I replay it all over and over and over. As much as I don’t want to it’s like its all on instant replay in my head. Looking back at every little detail I realized it IS my fault. I always thought it was but I pushed that away but now I know it’s all been my fault. I shouldn’t have gone back that...
second best
I’m sick of being second best. Guys fall back on me all the time. I’m their second option when the girl they REALLY liked didn’t give a crap about them. I’m their careless hookup. They text me wanting to hangout, and by hanging out that means hookup or as much as they can get. I’m tired of it. I want a guy to look at me as the first and only option. I want them to...
September 2011
5 posts
Sorry
I just wanted to say sorry. I know I’m complaining A LOT and I’m probably annoying everyone who reads my posts. I don’t mean to annoy anyone or act like a spoiled brat or anything like that. This tumblr is like a diary almost. When I fight with my dad or my sister and I’m pissed off, instead of blowing up i write on here..when I’m having a moment of weakness and I...
lwkejlqkjew hair...
UGH..im so frustrated..i’m tired of trying thousands of products from pantene to herbal remedies, i want something to fricken work already!! I’m so sick of it all, i just want my hair to go back to the way it used to be. I can to a total of like 3 hairstyles, before I used to do TONS of stuff with my hair but now i can’t do anything because it shows my bald spots. I hate looking...
Can't eat anymore, sleep all day, don't wanna talk...
Everything is beyond fixing at this point
I've absolutely had it!!
I’m fcking done! I can’t be here an other minute. I’m tired of the arguments and the abuse. Enough is enough. I’m tired of having to go around like I’m a walking disney world, happiest person on earth when I’m not. Everyone tells me how happy I am and that I’m always smiling but it’s all a big fat lie and I can’t do it anymore. I need to get...
August 2011
9 posts
Beautiful Girls
On tumblr everyone posts these pictures of these drop dead gorgeous girls. I see them, even reblog a few for their outfits or just how stunning they are and I realized…I can never be like that, I will never be like that no matter what. And by that I mean beautiful. I will never be beautiful, I’ll just be short, stumpy, chubby, ugly me.
Yes I’m a self loather.
Being a good friend
I’m done being a good friend to some of you. All you do is take advantage of me. I’m always fcking there for you, i listen to you forever and give you the best advice I can possibly give, I give you so much and then I get shit in return. Where are you when I need to talk to you? What’s your reaction when I vent to you? I give and give and give and all you do is take take take....
Don't bite the hand that feeds you
Oh wait too late, I don’t even have any arms at this point. I’m done helping you. DONE!! I help you so much and all you’ve done is wipe your ass with me. You don’t appreciate anything I’ve done for you and you just take advantage of me so I’m done. See who helps you now bitch.
Speaking 2 languages in a sentence because you're...
purelyawkward:
Cosmetology School
So I’ve decided I’m going to go to cosmetology school after high school. That way it gives me this year to work on SATs and getting my grades up. Then my parents don’t have to pay for two super expensive tuitions. But not only that, I love it. I love hair, I love makeup, I love making people beautiful. I love how you can make someone’s day and make them feel great about...
Candida diet
So I have a stomach condition. It’s a big pain in the ass and it’s getting on my last nerve. It’ll never go away it can only be maintained. It’s been worse then I realized which kinda stresses me out. I have to go on a special diet for it and it’s hell but I’m doing my best. I started a few days ago and already lost 2 pounds. It’s drained me so much...
Done with players
I’m so sick of falling for players. They act like you mean the world to them and tell you all the right things just to get it in, then go and tell the next girl the same thing. I’d rather them tell me exactly what they wanted from the start, not with my head and my heart (hey that rhymed). They put you through fcking hell and back and I’m just done with it. If you just wanna get...
couples
they’re everywhere!!! it seems like every time I go on fb or something there’s an other couple. And everywhere I go there are super cute couples cuddling, holding hands, or kissing. I mean I’m happy for them and all but at the same time it hurts. I want what they have. And no I’m not desperate to be in a relationship and will take any guy, I want the kind of relationship...
What's Wrong With Me?
I’d really like to know what is so bad about me. Is it my height? Am I too tiny? Is it my weight? Am I too fat? Is it the way I dress? Is it my face? Am I not pretty enough? Am I not hot enough? Am I not sexy enough? Is it because I want to wait for marriage to have sex? Am I too much of a prude for you? What is it? What is wrong with me? Why doesn’t anyone want me? I’ve decided...
